But Inside I'm Screaming

But Inside I'm Screaming

by Elizabeth Flock

With the television network furious and knowing she's let everyone down, she attempts suicide and ends up in a psychiatric facility.

With persistence, her therapists begin to help her examine the source of her pain and unhappiness.

  • Language: English
  • Category: Fiction
  • Rating: 3.45
  • Pages: 316
  • Publish Date: September 1st 2005 by Mira Books
  • Isbn10: 0778322106
  • Isbn13: 9780778322108

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The main character is Isabel Murphy who is a successful international broadcast journalist, loving wife, perfect daughter but suicidal human. Following this, Isabel finds herself at Three Breezes, a four-star psychiatric hospital nicknamed the "nut hut," where she begins the painful process of recovering from her mental breakdown to retrieve the life everyone thought she had. The chapters alternate to tell of time in the present at Three Breezes and a moment from Isabel's past that has led her to the hospital. Accepting her place among her fellow patients proves difficult, and Isabel struggles to reconcile the fact that she is one of them. Isabel is forced through a series of treatments that she rebels against, but slowly she faces the issues in her life that have taken over.

You sit in adirondack chairs.

This book shines an unsparing light on mental illness in its many forms and its cruel impact on people's lives as depicted by the other patients with whom Isabel is being treated. What I found most interesting was Isabel's inner dialogue when she was at her sickest and how it was at cross purposes with her treatment.

So this could have been a very interesting book. But sadly it had no depth to it, and things were "told" instead of "shown." Isabel breaks down on live television and as a result, heads home to commit suicide. Since she is the main character she's the center of attention and the book pretty much focuses on her. I can understand why Isabel is depressed and there of course, but we're always told why she does this and that instead of having the character express it through her actions. While I find exploring the mind of a mental patient (albeit a tame one) interesting, I didn't find Isabel very compelling.

Meet Isabel: successful international broadcast journalist, loving wife, perfect daughter, suicidal human. The honesty of the writing is sometimes painful because the reader feels Isabel's raw emotions and her irrationality that she doesn't belong in the "nut hut".

I'm not sure how anyone could read this book and feel any sort of emotional connection to it when the main character is so unlikable to the point of it being unbelievable.

What i liked best about this novel about a woman who suffers a breakdown and is admitted to a psychiatric hospital is the difference between Isabel and the other patients. (view spoiler) It ends with Isabel leaving the hospital for good, knowing that the next day she has to face meeting with her irate boss who wants to fire her and her abusive ex-husband. I was a little surprised that the author didn't let us know what happened in these meetings, to give some kind of closure, but i think she just wanted to leave it open to speculation.

I pick things up for all kinds of reasons, the title, a review I've read, a recommendation from friends or goodreads, because I saw it at Costco or maybe just because I have a potent need to know that I have at least a few books waiting in the wings, as it were.

Perhaps it was the fact that I've just finished reading "A Million Little Pieces" and hearing about and reading all the surrounding hoopla and controversy surrounding that book! Halfway through this book I quickly lost interest and thought "Hmm...similar to Pieces only rehab for suicide not drugs." From back cover: "It's so thin and small it seems impossible that it can end a human life.

Her second novel, ME & EMMA, became a New York Times bestseller and was an Indiebound (formerly Booksense) Notable Book of 2005.